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Minimalist

February 7, 2018

Happiness is state of being, not having.

– unknown

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And we’re the only difference

January 30, 2018

These canals, it seems
They all go in circles
Places look the same
And we’re the only difference
The wind is in your hair

If only they could see
If only they had been here
They would understand
How someone could have chosen
To go the length I’ve gone
To spend just one day riding
Holding on to you
I never thought it would be this clear

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The Right Person, Wrong Time

January 18, 2018

Timing is always something that none of us can seem to get it right when it down to relationship. We meet the person of our dreams the month before they leave to go study abroad. We form an incredibly close friendship with great person who is already taken. Or one relationship has to end because one of them isn’t ready to get the commitment and another ends because they are getting serious too soon.

“It would be perfect, if only this were five years from now, or year sooner or some indisticnt time in the near future where all our problems would take care of themsleves”. Said our inner voices.

Timing seems to be the invariable third party in all of our relationship. And yet we never stop to consider why we let timing play such a drastic role in our lives.

Timing is a BITCH! Yes! But its only a bitch if we let it that way. Simple truth that we can all think is we need to face up to : the people we meet at the wrong time are actually just the wrong people.

Because the right person will come in the right time. Always

Jakarta, 18 Januari 2018

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Im not Scared..

October 16, 2017

Friend : why do you so scared of fallin in love??

Me : No, Im Not! I fall in love with many things in this world, I love my family I love my friends, I love my pets, I love Sunset so does Sunrise, I love photography, and I love my job.

What Im scare about, however, is falling so deeply in love with someone and investing my life into theirs only to discover that they do not feel the same way about me,

To me, that is when you die while you’re still breathing, and you can’t recover from that nomatter how hard you try.

And the scariest part about that is you’re never going to know if you’re falling to the wrong person.

That’s what Im afraid of.

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OST. My Quarter Life Crisis

September 19, 2017

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I’m lying in bed just to get it all out
What’s in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What’s going on?
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Panggung Sandiwara

September 7, 2017

Dunia ini panggung sandiwara
Cerita yang mudah berubah
Kisah Mahabarata atau tragedi dari Yunani
Setiap kita dapat satu peranan
Yang harus kita mainkan
Ada peran wajar ada peran berpura pura

– Nike Ardilla

 

 

Sebagian orang sedang berpura-pura bahagia,

Sebagian lagi sedang berangan-angan,

Ada yang sedang memperjuangkan mimpi-mimpi,

Ada juga yang memasrahkan diri,

 

Sedangkan peranku saat ini, adalah menjagamu.

Dalam kejauhan, Dalam do’a, Dalam Diam.

Sampai suatu saat ini akan berlalu,

Menjagamu dalam genggam tangan.

 

Melihatmu mempersiapkan hidangan makan malam sederhana, walapun aku tahu kamu tidak jago memasak.

Mendengarkanmu bercerita, tentang curahan hati anak kita yang baru pertama kali jatuh cinta, karena kamu dulu bilang ingin jadi ibu rumah tangga dan mengurus anak-anak bukan?

Sampai akhirnya sudah tidak ada peranan yang bisa kita mainkan.

 

 

Teras Persinggahan, 7 Sept 2017

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Selalu Ada Alasan

May 12, 2017

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Sesederhana kebetulan menyaksikan indah langit senja yang tidak seperti hari biasanya.
Tapi tanpamu.

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Seperti saat kebetulan menemukan sudut terbaik di suatu kedai kopi yang sebelumnya tidak pernah kita datangi.
Tapi sendiri.

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Seperti saat aku kebetulan mendengar melodi asing yang aku tau alunannya akan kamu sukai.
Aku baru saja akan menoleh ingin tau raut mukamu.
Tapi kamu tidak disitu.

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Tiap sudut kota. Tiap tempat dan aroma. Tiap air muka.
Tiap lagu yang kamu suka. Tiap cerita yang kamu punya.

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Saat aku pulang kembali dalam dekap sendiri.
Mematikan lampu. Menutup pintu.
Berbaring. Tapi dalam ruang yang bergeming.
Karena kamu tidak disitu.
Tidak bersamaku.

Selalu ada alasan untuk merindukanmu.
Saat yang aku mau adalah beristirahat di lindung rengkuhmu.
Bercerita kepadamu. Tentang lalu lalang dunia yang terlalu ribut tanpamu.
Tentang ramainya dunia tapi sepi jika tanpamu.

Aku mau pulang.
Rinduku terlalu lama berkeliaran.

 

 

source : http://sementarakita.tumblr.com/post/82173696269/8

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transition

May 3, 2017

T   R   A   N   S   I   T   I   O   N

 

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A Letter From The Love You Haven’t Met Yet

January 22, 2017

Dear Future Love of My Life:

I know. I should have written before. Forgive me. But I got the feeling that you were beginning to think I didn’t exist. But I do. And I wanted to let you know that while I might be as elusive as a unicorn grazing in a field of four leaf clovers, I’m close. I’m around the corner, down the street, on Facebook, in your office, at our local coffee shop, a complete stranger. I made eyes at you once on the subway. I saw you across the room at a party. I swiped you right on Tinder. But it’s not our time yet. And I know you’re wondering why.

It’s really not fair that you’ve had to wait this long, or go on blind dates, endure bad sex, settle for meh relationships, feel misunderstood, cry from loneliness, wrap your arms around a pillow as you fall asleep at night. I’m so sorry, my love. You deserve an explanation. So here it goes. It’s taken me a long time to even admit this to myself much less to you, so please know that everything I’ve written here is true.

The reasons we haven’t met yet, in no particular order:

1. I haven’t thrown out the list of things I think you should be.

2. I’m with the wrong person right now.

3. I’m not ready to be loved unconditionally.

4. Since my life isn’t together, I think you’ll reject me.

5. I still believe that drama is a show of love.

6. I’ve been intentionally keeping my head too busy to think with my heart.

7. I need to date more to understand what I do and don’t like.

8. I won’t be able to appreciate you until life has kicked my ass.

9. I’m too focused on my own needs.

10. I don’t know how to create the feeling of home that lives in my heart.

Clearly, I’m not my best self yet. Or even myself—I’m still figuring out who that is. I’m pretty sure even if we did meet, you wouldn’t like me all that much right now. It’s entirely possible that we did hit it off once, and I left without getting your information; or maybe I did get your number and never called because of any one of the above reasons.

Be patient with me, darling heart. Know that I’m working my way toward you. So don’t spend any more time thinking about where I am or am not. Just keep making your life exciting and full, so when we do finally come together, we can bring each other joy, because we are already happy.

I know it’s taking longer than you’d like. It’s a hell of a lot slower than I could have ever imagined. But I’m here. This is me talking to you. And I’m not going anywhere.

Don’t give up on me.

Yours,

In perpetuity,

The Love You Haven’t Met Yet

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New Journey

December 31, 2016

 

New Journey

thanks for everything you gave 2016. and all of us already waiting the 2017!